What a week. Some experiences can seem more intense than others. I really don’t look at anything as ‘positive or negative’ these days. I choose to experience each situation with an open mind and see what I can understand and learn from. If there is anything that I am unable to understand at that moment, I just know I will understand eventually and trust that things are unfolding as they should keeping in mind that ‘all is truly well’ know matter what is in front of me because really…all is well. You see, we have labeled things as positive and negative when in reality from a spiritual standpoint they are experiences for us to expand consciousness and learn from taking us to an even higher level of understanding. We actually expand our spirit in our experiences whether they are good feeling or bad feeling. It is up to us how we handle and perceive our experiences that create the good feeling or bad feeling. Those feelings are what help us head in a direction. When we couple that with our thought we manifest our life scenarios. The Universe thought of everything, didn’t it?
When Lee went into the hospital my first human thought was, “Yikes! What am I going to do? Is he okay? Is he…” That was just for a moment then I took a deep breath, relaxed my shoulders, and put my focus on helping Lee knowing that one of those lessons is right at our fingertips waiting to be understood. I knew I was taking care of, I knew Lee was being taking care of, and I knew that the moment could be observed through fear and worry or calm, balance, and hope. Each way was creating more of the same feeling and thought and I chose calm, balance, and hope. There were times where I felt as if I was running back and forth and taking care of any and every one but during that time I kept my balance as best as I could. It was foremost in my mind. ‘Remember, Beth…breathe, take care of you as well, and relax as things unfold as they should.’ Then ’round two’ when Peanut came down with pneumonia. I felt grateful that she didn’t need to go to the hospital and that she was a strong teenager but as anyone knows, when your child gets sick, you go into mother bear mode. I realized this before I tried to become Wonder Woman and kept the balance and again…taking care of myself as well. I got Peanut all tucked in and then went to my room to relax. Yes, tears flowed but not from worry or fear but just from release and letting go. It’s good to cry and let it out. It is a releasing process for me. I feel even more relaxed and even energized after a good ‘letting go’ cry. It is when we stay in our sad, fear based cry that can create more of the same. There is a difference in crying because we are afraid and worried and letting go.
Today I bring Lee home. We thought he was coming home yesterday but he needed one more day. I have prime rib waiting for him with a baked potato and sour cream and a whole lot of love with a wife who is ‘over the moon’ that her ‘swan’ is coming home. But not only that a woman who understands and has had realizations through the whole process with a calm, balanced state of mind and a cup of coffee.