Yesterday was quite a day. As many of you know, Lee was taken to emergency with trouble breathing. Thank you for your emails asking how he is and how I am. Each email sends even stronger positive healing vibrations to our family. We don’t quite have a diagnosis yet. There are a range of thoughts that only bloodwork and cultures will give a diagnosis. We’re looking at possibly congestive heart failure, pneumonia, or/and the flu. Lee is resting comfortably as of now.
So why am I posting this on a positive thought blog? There is a method to my ‘madness.’ Many of you have asked how to keep a positive state of mind during intense experiences when the experiences seem as if it is a train to many negative and fearful emotions and thoughts. I thought I would give you a peek into my own mind, body, and spirit yesterday.
I don’t ignore the physical experiences in this lifetime. In other words, when someone is sick I keep a positive state of mind AND keep my awareness open. Going to the doctor isn’t a negative at all. We’ve been given these wonderful people to help on our journey when our physical being has problems. Doctors are a part of the physical life experience and they are there, just like all other professions, to help one another get through the life experience. It is up to us whether we take the help or if we even need it but it is there not because we are negative or doing something wrong with our state of mind. The help is there so that it can make the journey easier, calmer, and more positive. Does that make sense?
I tend to go into the ‘strong’ mode when it is time for me to take charge. I helped Lee out to the car and drove to ER. What was I thinking at the time? Get him there, get an answer, all is well no matter what. ‘All is well no matter what’ gives me the ability to ‘let go’ and expect the right thing to be done WHATEVER that right thing is. I have full trust in the Universe to bring us the people, the experiences, and the intuitive know how no matter what it is. For a split second my heart dropped wondering if Lee’s time was up in this world. My mind went there for an instant but I pulled my focus back to the moment at hand not thinking the worst. As humans we tend to go there, don’t we? It is our job to inner work on those thoughts. As I drove I watched Lee struggling to breathe and keep centered ready to deal with anything that would be coming. I took my mind a few days from now seeing Lee well, healed, and diagnosed in the best way possible…alive. Once I wheeled him into emergency he was in good hands but I stayed by his side to listen, be aware, and ask for any and all angels, family, the Universe, EVERYTHING to be with him. To help guide him AND the nurses and doctors. I let go once again. I did A LOT of letting go yesterday!
He is resting comfortably in his hospital bed now. I had a good ‘letting go’ cry yesterday. Not tears of fear, tears of negative, or tears of ‘the worst happening.’ Just a release of relief and being taken care of in more ways than one. Tears of gratitude for all the wonderful beings on this earth that help. And tears of gratitude that the love of my life is still with me in the physical.
This morning I am printing up photos for Lee’s hospital room. He said he misses us. Printing a photo of our cats, of Peanut making a grumpy face, Mom and Dad, Sissy, and me so that Lee can have us in his room.
I’m looking forward to seeing Lee’s wonderful being this morning.
It is better to have loved then to never have loved, don’t you think? How about today we put love and letting go into everything we do? Time truly flies and enjoying, loving, letting go, and shifting focus to the positive is the way to do.